I Escaped My Postpartum Depression

amelias bed hairIf you have ever had postpartum depression after having a baby then you have more than likely had at LEAST one person try and cheer you up the wrong way or just plain out say something that is completely uncalled for. When I had my first child, my daughter Amelia back in 2013, I loved her with all my heart but hit a roadblock about 3 months in.

PPD can show it’s ugly face in so many ways you guys. I’m just going to give you my personal experience of it. Three months after having her I started getting what other people would call lazy. Then I got to where I just had absolutely no motivation to do anything. The only thing I wanted to do was eat, watch tv, and sleep. I did not however lose motivation to take care of my baby thank the good Lord. I never neglected her once throughout the entire thing. But I neglected my house and myself. I even neglected my husband. I remember sitting in my bedroom with the tv off just crying for hours all day long because I felt worthless and I felt like nobody cared about me. This might sound like a pity party to you or a bit over dramatic but this is what PPD will do to you. A major imbalance of hormones.

This lasted for 3 years, guys. I don’t think it normally lasts that long but I also didn’t get any medication for it because at the time I didn’t realize that it was PPD. I just thought I was a horrible mom and wife. I got so reserved to myself that I actually got mad when visitors would show up at my house unexpectedly.

My depression spiraled out of control so badly that there were dirty diapers laying on my living room floor, there were dishes getting moldy in the kitchen, there were dirty rings in my toilet! Family members stopped coming over after seeing the condition that my house was in because is grossed them out. This deep depression lasted about a year before I started getting a little bit better. Slowly, my mindset kept progressing and now I believe I am a completely different person.

Ladies, I don’t know alot about PPD but I do know that it can come in many different forms. If you feel like this at all after just having your precious baby then please, go see a doctor. It only gets way worse before it gets better. It is really hard and embarrassing sharing this story with everyone on here for the world to see and read but I believe my story needs to be heard…

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